For energy, focus, and wisdom

Dear Heavenly Father,

I was so looking forward to church this morning, God. I couldn't wait to sings songs of praise to you, raise my hands up high and just focus solely on your love and mercy. For one hour and fifteen minutes, I could easily just rest in you.

However, the nursery was full and my uninterrupted hour with you God turned into a party of three. I was distracted with little hands, mischievous smiles, and the sparkling blue eyes his daddy gave him. Yet even amidst all those distractions, you still met me there, God. I felt your presence and was surprisingly patient and relaxed even though my morning was not going as planned. This, as you know, God, is progress for me, and I know it comes directly from you!

Tonight, God, I ask you for a solid, restful night's sleep so tomorrow can be filled with productivity. I desperately want to support Nathan as he continues to strive to make our home beautiful, so I must complete these task-oriented items. I ask you to give me focus and direction and energy as I cross things off of my to-do list. Remove the distractions, God, please? This will have to come from you, as social media and other time-wasters have a very strong pull on me! As always, I ask for patience with my children as these things get done. The desire is there, God, I just need energy and motivation and time.

Tonight, God, you heard the questions Benjamin asked me...the ones about Heaven. Oh, God, I just don't know if I am ready for these questions! It is times like these I feel so inadequate because I don't even know the answers or how to describe them to a young child like my own. How do I tell him where Heaven is? He asks if it's in the sky and I find myself thinking, "Well, that's where I always thought it was!" How am I to respond, God, when his little eyes fill with tears because I told him that when he goes to Heaven, he can't come back to Earth? I had to hide my own salty tears when he cried out that he would miss me and didn't want to be away from me. How do I answer that, God, especially when I share the same fears? Or the question, "Why can't we see God?" I don't really know! So I just ask you to give me wisdom, God, and give me opportunities and the desire to learn more about you, not just for my own knowledge, but also for my sweet little boys. 

I love you, Lord, so so much. I am finding such joy in you, God, and from the bottom of my heart, God, thank you for that.

Amen.